Home Sweet Children's Home

I've come to the point where I grow anxious when I'm away from these kids or the home.

Time is going too fast. It's a strange cycle- the days feel so long, but it's going by too quickly.
and every time I see an unfamiliar face, my heart grows urgent to try to get to know as many children as I can. It seems as if everything in this home is a paradox. Children are opening up to me, but at the same time, I'm only getting to know the first floor. (There are 3 floors that have children of different ages and gender).
I think my biggest fear in coming to this home to take part of this ministry was to burn out.. and even worse, to show that I'm burnt out. I'm surrounded by dorm moms and administrators that are running on fumes- some aren't even believers, and it seems to be another reason on why there is only discouragement and hurt in this home. These children do not know how to speak life; they don't understand that words can kill the soul.
During my time here, I refuse to sink. I only want to be a source of joy and comfort to these children, and it's amazing to see that as long as I stay faithful, He's filling my tank everyday.
He never fails to give me strength- just enough for the day.

The days consisted of:
waking up around 6:30-7, breakfast, then I go downstairs to my little babies. heh
around 8:30, we walk the children to school and kiss them goodbye.
Jimmy, Charlie, and I do QTs for about an hour-hour/a half, and then relax.
We cook our own lunch everyday! because it's not provided. HAHA but it's a good time to fellowship and bond :)
then we relax a little more and around 4- we teach Jee-min and Geun-young.
then we watch the little babies until dinner.
after dinner, we teach a group of elementary boys.
then we teach another group of elementary girls.
then around 9- WE'RE DONE FOR THE DAY! not really.
but we get to hang out with the others and relax.

This schedule started ... today. HAHA
and it went well. These kids have the attention span of a goldfish... and they have no motivation to learn- maybe it's because they think they're incapable or they lack the drive that is usually taught from parents, but we've been praying for a yearning to learn. for them to know that they are MORE than capable of learning and retaining knowledge.
it's a process, but i know they'll see it in them somehow..someday. (that's a prayer request within itself)

This is Jae-Hoon. He's the disabled child from my past post- his smile makes me melt. :') He's happy even though he can't walk, sit up on his own, talk, or basically do anything independently. He always reminds me to be joyful for the little things- as cliche as that may sound- he finds joy in taking a bite of food, or having one of the other kids carry him, or even just giving him a smile- he never fails to smile back. I just know that God's heart burns for Jae-Hoon, and that His hands will always be over his life. So precious.

This is So-Yeon. She's the older sister of this kid:

You know it! Jee-Hool!! :) the aggressive child that I love so much.. HAHAH (he took my glasses- i told him to stop- he put them on- i told him his eyes will hurt- and he closed them right away) HAHA 

So-Yeon is just as aggressive. but speaking and acting in love makes such a clear difference in these kid's lives. 

This is Hee-Yeon. She is an answer to my prayers. SHE approached me first!! HAHAHAH I'm so stinkin' selfish. She is affectionate, kind, and has a cool husky voice. She told me her dad passed away when she was in 5th grade. I told her my story. After that, she only seemed to be more comfortable to me. She comes to my room every morning to keep me company before she leaves for school ( I walk her!). 

The baby boy is Ho-Yeon. He's the youngest one in the home- only 9 months old. He. is. thee. cutest. kid. ever. ALL HE DOES IS SMILE. I always ask "WHY ARE YOU SO HAPPY?" He always lifts his arms out for me to carry him. :) ahhhhhhh. I love him so much. He rarely cries too. I like dat. I wish I could adopt him...heh..

Look at Charlie (from Australia) holding hands with Seung-Hyuk.. hehe Jimmy and Charlie are like fathers to these kids... it's beautiful but heartbreaking at the same time. but I can clearly see that God is using them so mightily in the home. amazing

This is Moo-Bee. (cutest name ever) it took her a while to open up to me, but now she's all hugs and love. :) Such a sweetie. 

So much joy in this picture heh

There are three kids on me. It was hard. but I love em.

Hyun-Jung and Eun-chong. both needy and they cry a lot...but they're too cute and precious to stay frustrated with..

Please keep these children, myself, and Jimmy and Charlie in your prayers.

Jimmy, Charlie, and I are finally sharing our testimonies this week. Jimmy went today, and it was amazing. THIS IS WHAT I WANTED! DEEP RELATIONSHIPS! God answers prayers. 

Soli Deo Gloria

Such a faithful Father.